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he booked in today. this weekend had been a rollercoaster ride for me. there were highs and lows. high being able to spend almost 2days with him. low being that i have to see him leave for army again. its field training next week. haha. feeling worried for him i guess. and partly cuz im PMS-in so im down again. whee. i cant help it i guess. especially after spending a long weekend with him.. and knowing that it will be another two weeks before i can get to see him again. and knowing that he isnt feeling well doesnt help. hence im worried and sad. WHEE. and not to mention, most of my homework are not done.

the two days was fabulous. i guess absence really make the heart fonder. i just wna spend every single moment with him and him only. i sleep at five am. and wake up at 10 to go and meet him. den i went to slp again at 1am. and wake up at 11 to meet him. rah and knowing me, weekends i only wake up at past 1pm. not a very fitful night's sleep also. cuz i dont wna miss his calls and his msg. hahaha. i find myself smiling for no reason when he was arnd. and im missing him alrdy. its only 1hr plus since he booked in. hope everything's ok and he will get well soon. haha. this is my most perfect weekend ever. since the day he booked in.

counting down.. 13more days to go before he book out! it will be fast over! (((: and i hope he stay safe..

la! and my sister is tryin to irritate me by saying that " we've been out for a good dinner leh jiejie. got cha kway tiao, chicken wing, clams, otak, satay. nice hor." and i think i just didnt care for once what they ate. cuz i cant be bothered. i see the attempts to infuriate me as attempts to distract me from moping arnd. and i just told her, "i dont care what you ate. i am happy with my mixed veggie rice." and seeing that her attempt to irritate me failed. she tried again by saying " i know why you so sad. HAHA. cuz kiphoe korkor not here" well. she succeeded. RAH.

and i really wna majong and kbox. WHEN cAN I DO THAT??? rah. matt lets go your house soon. (:







heyhey! (((: kip came home yesterday~ WHEE.

i went shoppin with jas yesterday too! i bought like a dress. a pair of jeans. a belt. a bustiere. and a necklace. and PLS PAY JASMINE FOR MY BIRTHDAY!(((: i've gotten my shoes! WHEE. ((((:
and kip. WOW. BOTAK! hahaha.
haah. whee. whee these are the pictures! HAHA.
the pictures with his cap! haha. he bacame fat can. like grow loads of muscles. hahaha. and getting harder to hug him lors! XD
this is the one without his cap! hahaha. he look funny cans. wa. finally man. i waited for so long at the MRT station can. i see so many buses go pass.. and voila! one of the last few buses.. i finally see my darling! ((((: happy until i cry arx. hahaha.
my fatty bom bom. whee.
lol. and that pic was before we go watch apocalypto. he was trying to squeeze into the tiny thing can. and it creaked like no one's business man! hhaah. HE's so heavy now! whee. happy. at least they fed him well. hahaha.

and this is one of our not so normal picture. hahha. at least i look normal XD but kip looks cute! heheeheh. and yea. we went starbucks to drink coffee heh. (((:

lala~ shall post more ltr. haha. posting pictures' hard work for me can. i really dont know how. =P

(((: if you are happy and you know it clap your hand *clap clap*
if you are happy and you know it clap your hand *clap clap*
if you are happy and you know it and you really wna show it..
if you are happy and you know it clap your hand *clap clap*

yay. im happy! cuz kip sang our song to me on the phone on friday night! HEHE. (((: make me so touched! la and i finished my homework! YAY. so fun cans. and i have a shoppin trip to look forward too!

argh. tmr's monday again. oh and i accidentally banged my hips against the table. =( PAIN. VERY VERY PAIN.

la and my dad says im fat. =(( hahaha. evil.

im happy cuz my blog looks so pretty pretty! i shld try to make a blogskin myself! hahahaahah XD

lala~ back to earth. i wna majong!

yesterday had OG16 outing. hahaha. we went marina bay. hmmm. ok lars quite interesting. den went to play pool after that. YAY. I MISS POOLING! and i think i deproved. =( LA! 5more days to kip coming out!!!! YAY YAY YAY. cant wait cant wait cant wait!

today's my one year anniversary with kiphoe!!! (((: he called me yesterday to wish me happy one yr anni. hahah. at first i was quite sad cuz he sounded different from usual. like veh stiff and detached. so i was feelin depressed. it was about 9.56pm. i was studying chem and den after that call i felt so sad. but at 10.22pm he called again. he sounded out of breath. haha. and i found out why he sounded so stiff and detached. cuz his platoon's phone has too many people queuing up for it. so he ran off to the other platoon's phone to call. but they are not allowed to. so when he called me he talk to me for awhile den an officer came over. he had to hang up. cuz he's not allowed to use the phone there. den he ran back to his bunk. borrowed a phone from his friend.. it was almost lights out alrdy. den ya. he sounded like himself again. den i was happy again. and feelin silly that i actually think that he didnt care anymore. hahaha. (((:

at night. i lost sleep. i couldnt sleep yesterday. i was awake the whole night tru. and at three plus four i started shivering. i think im having panic attacks. i suffered from insomnia. it was really horrible. i was thinking abt school and stuff den i just culdnt sleep. argh. so i didnt go sch today. and i missed chem test. meaning i have to take it some day else. ahhh. i dunno whats wrong with me. i keep having bad dreams and a feeling of dread. as if something bad is gna happen. rah. den in da morning. my dad talked to me. it sorta calm me down a little. but ya. im stil panicking. in a way. but less panicky. i dunno for what also. just. lidat lors.

year two is a bad yr man. i mean at da start of sch everyone is stil high and happy. but now.. it seems that everyone is starting to feel the stress of yr 2. hahaha. i hope i can pull tru this. my dad said that if i tried my best.. it doesnt matter even if i failed cuz i alrdy tried my best. so im just gna give the best i can and leave the rest up to fate.

(: i will be ok. i just need more retail therapy mans. i really need to shop or go kbox and vent. hahaha. (: or majong. (: lalala~

ooo YES. my darling finally called me! wheeeeeeeee. yesterday night at nine pm. wheeee. happy happy happy. glad to know he's safe and sound. and hopes he wun catch a cold cuz they'd been training in the rain! =(((((( but oh man. missed his voice so so so much. he's coming back on the 26th jan! WOOTS.

his mama called me in the after noon to ask if he called me. cuz he called her and told her that i didnt answer his call =( but YAY inthe end he called! HEHEH.

oh and i went to bake cookies for charity. hahaha. turned out erm.... ya. aniways we are selling it. WAHAHA.

i love i love i love my baby!!!

but life is a mess totally. rah. i need to study and go out with boys and girls too!!!!! im happy. happy happy happy. but no calls tonight. boo boo boo =((((((((

tata!

my sister says im getting more and more easily irritable. well she didnt put it in those terms but ya. she meant that. and i think so too. i got more grouchy i guess. cuz kiphoe wasnt arnd. and not hearing from him for two days in a row makes me lidat. argh. i dunno how people manages to do it. i just cant seem to stop thinkin lol. hahaha. rah. i missssssssss kiphoe! rah.

aniways to keep myself occupied. i went to try out photoshop. hahaha. didnt change much actually.. just ya. added some words. thats all. lol.

nothing to say. sch is driving me crazy too! whee.

and i wna go kbox. i wna go out with boys and girls. i wna have a life!

my darling went army yesterday. officially. so he's gone for two weeks. meaning i cant see him for two weeks. meaning i will worry for his safety every minute till he's back. meaning i will be down. meaning i will lose my appetite.

oh well. thanks matt mu and mua for ure sweet replies (((: and thanks to my friends who help to occupy my spare time in school so that i wont think abt kip gg army. thanks alot and being silly really helps. its only one day and im like gg crazy when im left alone. maybe its like that at first. maybe it will get better. i hope it will get better. haha. i sound deranged. like im suffering from spilt personality or sth lidat. LA!

aniways i was really touched when kip's mum called me just now to say that kiphoe called home and say everything's ok. den she say just to inform me in case i was worried. which i was. haha. den eh say kip will be home on the 26th jan. (((((: cant wait! den she hung up. den she called back again to say that kip didnt call me cuz the officer said to call family first.. den she told me not to feel sad that he didnt call cuz got reason one. den she said that she know i will feel sad if she neva tell me this.. and she say if she were me she will be too. LOL. women's mind thinks alike. (: la and i was really touched la. cuz im like part of the family alrdy.

argh. vectors suck big time. like why do i care which direction the stupid arrow wna move at lars. like it matters! this is one part of maths i dont like. HAHA. cuz it involves directions. and i suck at it. whee. next week theres a huge organic chem test. and an econs test. rah. yes i lost my notes. i am sure its somewhere in my home. but i just have no idea where. LA. say im smart man. hahaha. econs is just gettin more and more interesting!

oh. and i really am losing appetite. i just dont feel like eating. unless im really hungry? like i just pick at my food tonight. i skipped dinner cuz my mouth dont feel like moving! dunno if im just lazy or im really lazy. rah. im hungry. how? eat. later ba. hahaah.

i think talking to myself is fun. ohno. theres sth realy wrong with me. oh yay. baking cookies for CIP at zhuang shu's house this sunday! time fillers! entertainment! yay! and my room is filled with kiphoe. hahaha. my ceiling. my stuff toys. our picture on the table. my boxes. my earrings. my hairband. all kiphoe buy de. hahaha.and i cant leave the phone unattended in case he tries to call. haha. i sound like a psycho. wheee. i think i go eat. rah.

loves to everyone!(:

hey. =((( many things are on my mind lately. hahaha. just cant help feel down sometimes. maybe its due to my PMS. but. i seem to have lost my sense of humour. lets list out my worries k. maybe im just making a big fuss over nothing actually. (: knowing me. it might be. LOL.

-my darling's gg army. =( tomorrow =(((
-i have two freaking test next week. ECONS and CHEM. wahlao.
-i have no idea whats the point and vectors. and i catch no balls during lecture.
-i cant laugh properly sometimes.
-i am worrying about everything.
-i miss my friends.
-my foundation seems week.
-i feel antisocial.
-this year is gg so fast that i have no idea how can i cope.
-im turning into a mugger soon. which is so unlike me.
-i feel old and matured.
-my darling will not be arnd when im feeling down.. cannot help me destress.
-worried that i cant study when he's not arnd. cuz usually he's the one that nags at me to study.
-im losing touch with everything. maths chem gp lit. argh and econs.

OMGOMGOMG. my dear's gg to army tmr. RAH. dunno how to describe this feeling. im worried whether he will get bullied there.. oh man i sound like his mum. worried if he will have enough food to eat.. worried if he will fall sick . he gets flu veh easily. den ya. wonder if he will sleep properly not. raaaah. worrying that he will turn gay. ohmygoodness. i hope not cans. and not seeing him for two weeks seems like a century. rahrahrah. =(

school. i dont know how. but i have to catch. i must know how to plan. i've got a stupid handbook that has so little space to write things in. which cost me seven buck. which i cant use to plan for my studies. RAH. this is nightmare. i have to catch up on vectors. cuz i totally sucked at it. i mean who really cares which side the vector is moving?! right?! i mean rah. vectors dumb. but i have to like it. else i cant do it. HMPF. and econs. bloody hell can. they finished one set of lecture notes without us lars! rush rush rush. i dont even know what they are talking abt le stil lidat! hmpfhmphmpf. ultra bu shuangness. >.< ok. so my plan is to stay back in school to study everyday. so i cant study. i wna study. i need to study. la. for now i need to do my tutorials and revise YR1's work.

i miss matt mu minyu unice jasmine serhua and monkey and sihan! ahhhhhhhh. they are just so good at destressing me. somehow. due to the bitchiness of mumu. and the wildness of the girls (((: but luckily i have wanhsin and joy they all to listen to me whine in school. tho its really random sometimes and i dont make sense.. but thanks. it helps alot. else u know, i will die one. haha. bahx.

now i know why im losing my sense of humour. im growing up. having the responsibility of working hard to choose the path i want in future. rah. this is so bad. i wna stay young. like go neverneverland or sth with peter pan. la. AAAAAHHHHHHH. kiphoe's gna go army tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i cant send him off. the time we spent tgt today is like so short can. RAH. time is neva enough. i hope the time will fly.. so that i can see him soon. two weeks shall fly so i can see him!(:
i miss him alrdy. =(((((((((((((

woots. its a long long week. firstly.. happy belated birthday to myself!

luckily i had a mini outing with matt and mu.. camping at matt's house to play majong and poker. ((: and monopoly.. which i managed to monopolize. HEHEHE. also.. went to bake cake for my kiphoe! it wasnt veh successful.. but its quite nice i think. XD ya.

den school reopens. i am an OGL hence.. i didnt attend any lessons. but its quite fun tho i dont think i bonded much with my OGMs. maeb cuz the grp veh big den dunno where to start with and everything. but i had fun. i finally learnt how to dance the mass dances.. and wow. i didnt know i can sweat so much cans. RAH. and woah. i think i burn alot alot of fats.

as usual.. my birthday is on orientation night again! haha. great. but its really sweet of my OG to sing birthday song for me! not once.. not twice but trice! aka many many! veh veh touched. and i've got a mini cake!((((: which got squashed by me =(((( boo.

den at night.. kiphoe came to fetch me. as well as buy hokkien mee. he bought me a tiramisu cake and made a cocktail for me! and he named it after me too! HEHE. veh touched. touched touched touched. (: so i ate the hokkien mee while he and my sis attempted to shake the cocktail making can.. wa. there's gas inside so some of the cocktail burst out can! hahaha. so hilarious lars! XD it was quite late le.. like arnd one am liao so.. ya kip went home and i go slp. cuz im so so so tired! (:

thanks to everyone.. who wished me happy birthday! ((((: i really appreciate that..

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